hi..emm..i guess i finally got a hold on myself..still trying to not lett the past haunt me...it sort of made me realiazed that i need to be thankful to be around the people i know now..nothing quiet the same for the past few days or so n i guess it will never will..i'm not giving up..maybe its a phase..was forced to c DUNIA BARU THE MOVIE last nite with my sis..its a good movie..highly entertained..made me frgot the harsh fact for a while..my plan this week would me going to the counselor for sme help..i really need help..n just enjoy life as it is i guess..which i doubt will be as enjoyable as before..but nonetheless, there is still hope...to alin n yana..thanks a lot k..thanks3!!!..erm..i finally was able to smile yesterday..n ya,laughter is the best medicine..(n.n)
The Gift Of Knowing You
There are gifts of many treasures
For both the young and old,
From the tiniest little trinkets
To great boxes filled with gold.
But, put them all together
And they could not stand in lieu,
Of the greatest gift of all
The gift of knowing you.
When your times are filled with troubles
Sadness, grief, or even doubt,
When all those things you planned on
Just aren't turning out.
Just turn and look behind you
From the place at which you stand,
And look for me through the shadows
And reach out for my hand.
I will lift from you your burden
And cry for you your tears,
Bear the pain of all your sorrows
Though it may be for a thousand years.
For in the end I would be happy
To have helped you start anew,
It's a small price to pay
For the gift of knowing you
erm..don't really noe wat to say..just that i am really thankful to all the supports that i received frm u guys..rite noe i am relly falling apart..really2 empty..i noe that there is still much, much more to me in this world..but until i actually found them..i just dun realy noe how to move on..i've benn living in total darknss for the past few days..no feelings at all..can't even feel like i'm still breathing..but i wanna thanks u 2...it meant a lot to me..i dun know wether i can recover or not..i know that there're many fish in the ocean.....but its not about that..its just that losing her felt like losing myself..felt like i was taken away too..every people will face death..that's smething that none of us can't deny..but i dunno..i'm just so empty now....i broke my leg few days back...i tried to jump from the balcony..but i was 2 damn scared..just manage to break my leg..i dunno..i'm reakky falling apart...but really,thanks so much..thank you
ermm..my life is very3 empty now..remember that i told u that my ex ask me to go for a dinner with her?..it was 3 days b4 that nite..after we broke up, i met this fine young girl at the library after class..he came to me and asked me why was i being so sad and quite in class..u see,she was in my class but i nver ever2 noticed her..n i will regret it for the rest of my pathethic life..we instantly became friends..nothing more than friends..this was a year ago..we did lot of things..fun things,crazy things..just name it..and day by day i grew this warm feeling for her..i was in love with her but i was afraid that she might rejected me and that will jeopardice our friendship..i kept my mouth shut..thinking that i'l never tell her my deep feeling for her..but i was wrong..dead wrong..i told her the night my ex asked me to the dinner..she never said anything to me after that..she ignored me in class..she didn't answer the telephone..and i felt as if she was fading away.. it took her 2 weeks when she finally told me that she likes me too..only that she was in shocked that i share the same feeling too..i was happy..more than happy..but it lasted only for 2 weeks..the night that i when for the dinner with my ex..i went with a heavy heart..dun get me wrong..i told her where i'm going and she said she's fine with that..on my way to the restaurant,her brother called..she was in the OR..she met with an acident on her waay home..i was speechless..tears rolled down my cheeks..i rushed to the hospital immediately but i was too late..her skull was fractured..with the major blood loss..she didn't survive..she left me..left me alone without any goodbyes..emm..she was no more..i dun know what to do..i tried to killed myself..i just dun know what to do
